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Jun. 13th, 2005 @ 03:39 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: mellowmellow
Thank you very much for this book. I'm sure it will benefit many people and I'm so glad you posted in the community xxx
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May. 29th, 2005 @ 12:34 pm (no subject)
Hello my name is Jon and me and 2 friends of mine, Fiorella and Sam, are working on a book about self injury called: 'SI: inside and out'. the book is mostly personal accounts about the subject. The first chapter introduces it, saying what it is. then there are 4 more chapters, one that's accounts of people who used to self injure but no longer do it. the second one is about people that self injure now and their experiences, the third one is for people, be it friends or family members, that have helped their friend/family through it and want to share their experience and the last chapter is about people that have been affected by it but haven't done it or helped someone through it. we would greatly appreciate your account, it is not something you have to do but it is an open invitation for anyone who wants to share their experience. 2 of the authors of this book were self injurers and 1 is on her way to recovery. our accounts will also be included in this book. there is no obligation for you to participate, but participation would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.
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Apr. 29th, 2005 @ 09:18 am Up to my heart
Current Mood: irritatedirritated
I nearly went spiraling back in to depression on tuesday. I got grounded on Saturday for staying out late, for a whole week! Then i snuck out every day but on Tuesday my mother caught me and grounded me for 2 weeks! Anyway she just kept patronising me and making me feel terrible and I wanted to cut so bad. I wanted to run away so she'd feel guilty for making me sad. I kept telling people how much i hated her and wanted to die and stuff. My mum went out last night so i snuck out and got in and out the house without any trouble which was good. I think being stressed out with my mum has made me ill because I'm off school today. My mum burst in to my room this morning and my head was acheing really bad and she was just mumbling on at me and none of it was going in my head. No one believes me now when I say im ill...probably because I'm ill that much. Anyway it's not my fault im sick, its my parents, if they fed me right and took enough care of me and payed me attention and were nice I wouldn't get stressed and sick and want to die all the time...
I think it's time my parents figured out how to be REAL parents.
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Mar. 10th, 2005 @ 08:17 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Current Music: Box car Racer ~ I feel so
Eee been another long while. My life has been such a rollercoaster lately. I mean it was fun for a while, but now it's just terrible. So I started going out with this girl, and it was great for a while, but she lives miles away and I only see her on weekends. So I got depressed through the week days. Anyway I met this guy and we hit it off a bit. And I decided I'd break up with my girlfriend to be with him. But I didn't because I'm not sure who I like more and who's worth it! So anyway I told this guy something about one of my friends. And I thought this thing I told him was like already known. But it turns out it was a secret! And this guy really hurt my friend by telling people this secret. Anyway I was off school ill today and my friend texts me and is like "you bitch, i can't believe you told him! I thought i could trsut you, but you're just like the rest" And I just burst out crying, i was just feeling so horrible. So then we sorted it out, but this guy was being stupid about it! He was just searching for sympathy from me and saying stuff like "oh I bet you dont like me now, I want to die, I feel so horrible and mean, I hate myself now" I was really mad. I felt like saying something really bad but I held it in...amazingly enough! I mean he has no idea what it's like to truly hate yourself and want to die. He's just one of those attention seeking idiots! So like, today I really wanted to cut, it's been so long though. I was depressed last week and started shaking so i rumaged around looking for my blade...and it wasn't there...At first I was like "oh my god, someone knows, someone's got my blade!" But then I remebered I'd thrown it away, which was good of me. I've avoided cutting for so long now. Anyway...so, i've still got a girlfriend, I'm angry with someone who likes me alot but I'm going off him, I nearly lost a friend...oh and I'm about 2 months behind on coursework! I've been crying alot these past few days. I've just had way too much coursework to do and it makes me so upset. Anywayyyy, just a little-ish update, hope everyone's okay. xox
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Feb. 25th, 2005 @ 10:00 pm please help me.
Current Mood: determined
Current Music: Motorhead
Hi... id rather not say my name incase any1 who knows me reads this and i have to protect girlfriend ul c y in a moment.
My girlfriend has a serious problem with self harm, she has only started within the past month or so.... so i feel there is strong hope for her to lose her obsession. but..... she has already done over 50 (possibly 60) cuts, 4/5 burns, 2+ bruises, and an array of fingernail scratches. please i am BEGGING any1 who cares to reply to this with any tips, pointers or well..... just ANYTHING which can use to help her stop. please... i cant bear to see her hurting herself, it just kills me, i cant take seeing her get hurt....ESPECIALLY when its self inflicted! please...... help me...... thank u all.
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Feb. 25th, 2005 @ 09:42 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: crankycranky
Wowweessss well totally haven't logged on to this journal in ages, really sorry! I've ha a bit of a dramatic really and I keep focusing on different things. I feel very self centred because I'm not helping people like I used to. I can't think of advice to give people. I'm lost :(
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Feb. 20th, 2005 @ 04:13 pm HELP!!!!
Current Mood: bitchybitchy
Current Music: My Chemical Romance - I'm Not OK (I Promise)
Oh my gawd...my life is hell right now...my mom is bitching about every thing that I do and since my parents found out I SI, they won't leave me a moment's peace...I can't be by myself at all because I'll either cut or purge...wtf?

I need some encouragement...a reason to not just slit my throat and die!!! Someone help me!!!! SOS SOS SOS SOS

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Feb. 8th, 2005 @ 11:56 am New Girl Here
Current Mood: pensivepensive
Current Music: The Keyboard Keys Clicking
Hey everyone...I'm new and looking for some support and advice...
My name is SooJung first of all and I have been cutting for 7 years, but last Sunday my dad thought he would be an asshole and went on my old email address and read all of my stuff to my friends about my cutting and ED...it pissed me off sooooo bad...
But now my parents know about everything and I need someone to talk to about this...they want to send me to a doc, but I've already made up my mind that I'm not gonna stop doing this just because some person with a PhD told me to.
What can I do to get my parents off my case...they check me all over 24/7 and the worst thing is...it makes me want to cut more and more and more....and more.
HELP ME!!!!!!!
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Jan. 31st, 2005 @ 11:12 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: motivationally geeky
Current Music: Work - Jimmy Eat World
ah, i think this is the way to post on this thing...hello...i actually have no idea what the heck i'm supposed to do, this is the first community i've joined, hehe.

but yea...i used to cut, i think it's been about two years now. and just...i saw that this was a place where people wanted to stop. and this is retardedly corny, but there are ways to quit. it doesn't mean that you'll stop getting urges. addiction is for life, it's true. you have to fight urges, but you do get stronger. you do. it doesn't happen fast at all. it takes time. but when you've gotten so far, you'll notice the difference. while you're changing, you don't. but when you've gotten to maybe a baby step away, you notice the difference, and it gives you the strength to take that next baby step.

that's not the way i went, which is, i guess, ironic, but, that is the way it happens. i had to stop right away, abruptly, cold turkey, whatever you want to call it, and i swear, i must have gone into withdrawal or something. but i know i was even more fucked up afterwards for a while. haha, it's like a drug. addiction and all. i'll stop babbling now. it's been interesting reading other people's stories. i wish you all the best of luck.

and if you truly wish to, deep down, then you can find the strength within you to stop. that is the survival instinct of human nature. i don't think many actually want to hurt themselves, just for the pain. it goes against all instincts to desire pain. but reasons come up, and we want to believe so strongly that we like it, that we almost believe it. almost. but deep down, there's something telling you, "i don't want this pain". listen to it. no one deserves that kind of pain. no one. no matter how bad or dirty you feel like you are. if nothing feels real, go try martial arts. you definitely feel real. heh. *hugs to all* i truly hope that you people can stop.

but it will not be easy. to not be mistaken. i said it is possible. not easy. i still get mad urges. but you learn to fight. and you'll end up the better for it. what does not kill you, can only make you stronger. take care, people.
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Jan. 2nd, 2005 @ 06:06 pm Update
Current Mood: blankblank
No one has wrote in here in ages so I thought I'd update. Well i havent cut in months, and I hope not to cut again. I wish I'd never started really. I can't show my legs or wrist and it's annoying covering up all the time. I don't feel depressed any more wich is good. But I feel bored alot which makes me sad. But Im going back to school on Tuesday wich will give me something to do and keep me occupied. Im just worried people will call me names and it will all start again. Hmm...
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